listening to: The Fish Tank
mood: Better
I remember when I had to see a therapist back in the day and I remember one activity I used to do. Any time there was someone who really hurt or angered me and I wanted to get rid of the negative vibes they made me feel I would write a letter to them. Now it was completely my choice what I did with that letter (I actually gave one to the person) but I generally chose to burn it or rip it up or throw it away or to just save it in a diary or a box or something. Well this time I'm going to write it in here. It will make me feel better to have someone know how much I hate this person. With that said, the letter is going to be to rebecca bc I'm like 99% sure I saw her the other night though I'm pretty sure she didn't see me it still made me realize just how much I really hate this girl and I need to get some of it out. Here goes:

Dear Rebecca,
I hate you so much it makes my stomachs twist into knots at the very thought of you. I hate the way you talk and the way you laugh. You talk like a 13 year old valley girl doped up on caffeeine and stupidity. Your laugh sounds ugly and rude and abrasive. Almost more like a cackle. I hate the way you walk, it's like your always trying to sell yourself to every man you pass. You have no dignity or self-respect. You are a disgrace to females across the globe. I understand that you act so slutty because your insecure but that doesnt justify it to me. I don't understand your need for everyman to accept you, for everyman to want you. I know that ugly girls (which you definately are) are prone to being more slutty but have you ever thought about trying to improve your mind? Improving your mind would be alot easier than improving the way you look. Actually I don't know if it would be. Your face is horrendus and teeters on the edge of looking like a transvestite and looking mis-formed. But your brain is even worse. You have no soul and you care nothing about anyone but yourself. You don't even know how bad you hurt mark. Really you hurt both mark and my marc. But I suppose if you didn't realize how much it would hurt yhour boyfriend to cheat on him with 2 guys (that he knows of) then how would even think how much it would hurt my marc for you to destroy the friendship with his best friend. But even if you did know you wouldnt care bc thats the kind of person you are. And you did DESTROY their friendship. Even when adam ineveitably gets fed up with you and ends up hating you more than everyone else marc isn't going to forgive him when he comes back trying to be his friend. You can live in your own little world and not believe that but we all know its whats going to happen. And lets talk about that too. Why would you destroy all these friendships just to have sex with someone. Oh wait, bc your a slut, I guess that ones kind of obvious. The funny part is how much like his ex you are. You're insecure so it's easier for him to manipulate you and your manipulative yourself so you wont have a problem with his being that way. Your fat and ugly which makes you less likely to cheat on him bc he's insecure about that. Actually I think his ex was more attractive, smarter, a less slutty too so he'll probably marry you. But your as big of a bitch as she was..so you'll probably be doomed to the same fate of having him talk shit about you all the time until he fi nally explodes into a burst of hatred and runs away from you and wants nothing to do with you. That is the day that I hope I hear about. Bc you will get what you deserve as will he. You'll have no friends and no fuck-buddy and neither will he. Ha ha ha. I hate you because you think you hurt me. You don't know me well enough to hurt me and you also werent important enough too. I quit hanging out with you before I realized just how slutty you had become. I told you I didnt want to be your friend and I meant it. I think your a bad person. I think when you die you will go to hell. Which is funny since your family actually thinks that too. You need to get your shit together. You need to improve your personality and your brains. You better work hard on those things because nothing could help your looks except some hardcore jenny craig and some plastic surgery on that awful face of yours. Not being a bitch would be helpful too. Also you had no right to call me fat. The jeans I gave you were my fat jeans. I'm not that big. We weigh the same and you are 6 inches shorter than me. Dumbass. Do the math. I will never not hate you. I hope there will be a day when I don't feel nauseous at the very thought/site of your face. Honestly I hope you get hit by a bus. You are one person the world would actually be better off without. But you would never think that because you think the world revolves around you. NEWSFLASH: IT DOESNT.


Sincerely,
The girl thats everything you only wish you could be
(AKA smart, talented, loved by all her friends, considered attractive by all her guy friends {maybe its because I don't pretend to get drunk and throw myself at them})


Well I feel better :) I didn't even touch her alcholism but I am thinking about writing a blkog about all the alchoholics I know/knew and I'll just save a spot for that there lol.

Thanks for the suggestions. I still have a lot of things to consider but the main thing that will set my charity apart from the others is the fact that I'm actually going to blog about the people I give money to. Most charities, you don't really ever get to see what your money does for people.
» Praetorian on 2007-09-21 08:54:18

I like your letter!

She's a bitch and karma is too; she'll get hers.
» Chloefoxx on 2007-09-21 06:38:27

No, you are.
» Bartholomew on 2007-09-22 01:25:40

wow, sounds like my sister.
» AmbyrJayde on 2007-09-22 04:55:06

Beautiful, get it?
» Bartholomew on 2007-09-22 05:28:52

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